My Journey to the Truth

 

Someone said, “I want to be happy.” Then I used to talk to myself.

“Happiness is taken after tremendous sorrow and despair. Without cloudy minds and pains, you cannot get happiness. In the smooth course of life, you cannot grab it.”

In my youth, I also suffered much pain and sorrow during search for the truth. I was struggling between life and death and always dark shadow was on my face. I was eager to meet God and if any absolute truth, I wanted to have a destined meeting with God. At that time, if people had a chance to see me, probably they could see that I would die wondering somewhere.

However, I finally experienced meeting God in person and changed my “Poem of Sorrow” to “Poem of Happiness.” Therefore, I am now happier than any other people.

Whenever I see somebody is singing self-mocking songs and living aimlessly, I feel so stuffy, frankly speaking. By accepting God, they could get a clear answer. By the way, they don’t solve the questions that are from the bottom of their heart and they don’t listen to the voice of conscience.

In my childhood, my nickname was cry-baby. Due to having a weak mind, I cried a lot and I burst into tears whenever a problem occurred. Nevertheless, I was very sensitive in my adolescence and I was into various analyses. When I think of those things again, I feel shameful because I told various sophistries at that time. However, those activities were absorbed into my ability later. They also woke my emotional intelligence.

My emotion is highly sensitive enough to read people’s minds. So sometimes, I can detect subtle moods and invisible spirits. While reading a series of looks, sometimes I can find its root cause. With this highly sensitive emotion, I started my journey to the truth.

Human beings can recognize things through five senses to build credit. Actually, I haven’t seen God. However, I knew the limits of human beings so I thought we cannot see God. Accordingly, I could avoid mistakes that reject God.

Furthermore, I haven’t heard the voice of God in person. I couldn’t detect Him any more through five senses. However, I thought if God did not exist, all things before me have no meaning. I thought that it was the proof that there is the sense other than five senses.

While I was studying Science, I found how incredible the nature and the things in it are, if God did not create the world. If we believe the earth where we live existed by huge coincidence and complex lives such as humans were accidentally made, I thought that it was a real irrational stubbornness. My reasoning insisted on giving up those silly beliefs. Because I have reasoning power, I could stay on a correct track.

If I had assumed everything is just a coincidence, I couldn’t find out any creative ground of existence. The evolutionists explained everything in the frame of coincidence. The probability of the coincidence was almost zero when mathematically calculated. Based on their assumptions, we are really encountering incredible realities. In other words, we are facing the world that requires blind belief.

If I say like this, some people ask me why I dare to decline the evolutionism. It is because they think the evolution is a scientific theory. Then I ask them, “Then, have you ever seen the processes of evolution? Or can you show me an intermediate proof for evolution? The proof that is not fake!” Actually, they don’t say any proofs with confidence. Because the evolutionism was not proven, it must be excluded from Science.

Concerning human beings that are too much different from animals, Science did not explain any possible scenarios. I thought animals behave according to the programmed patterns but humans did not.

Only humans understand eternity and they long for it. Different from other animals, they built and developed civilizations. Animals are satisfied when physiological needs are met but humans are not satisfied with them. Why does this difference exist?

I thought human beings were designed differently from other animals. Even if we use the evolution process, it cannot explain human beings by itself. I did not see praying animals so I thought humans are closely related with God. It caused me to come up with the design issue. If humans were not designed to communicate with God, this happening does not follow.

I finally reached this question, “Who am I?” If humans got five senses only, we have to be satisfied when the needs for five senses are provided. However, we cannot be satisfied with them. This means another sense exists. Then, we could find the answer after finding the sense.

Now we have to find the desire different from the desires caused by five senses. The unique desire of us that I found was to become as God. Without God, the desire was not given.

At this juncture, we need to throw away the groundless theory like the evolutionism. Let’s think about the cosmic order that runs on the basis of the time that is more correct than watch and it does not follow the physical laws in Science textbooks. Surprisingly, the nature was optimized for the species of life on the earth. Only God can create complex species like human beings!

Eventually, only the design of God can explain all existences. Albert Einstein who discovered the Theory of Relativity thought the source of the existence is energy so he believed the existence of God can explain all things. Because of the same reason, I finally believed in God.

It is not that important to call a new sense as what. Only the object that the sense desires is important. In order to become as God, I found that humans want to free from the sin nature. It was as if they were as God from the beginning but they lost the position.

While Buddhism claimed that humans can free from the evil desires and reach the level of God through ascetic practices, Christianism claimed that humans can reach the level of God through grace after accepting the limits of human beings.

From now on, I have to tell the story of mine because this is based on my subjective judgment.

When I realized the existence of God, I studied the philosophies. However, I found there is no conclusion during the development of the logic models in every philosophy. At that time, I found that problems exist in the assumptions in the human philosophy. It was like Castle in the Sky!

While studying religions, I found the same features in Buddhism and the religions other than Christianism. The courses to the truth were too subjective and I couldn’t find the persons who reached the level of God. Accordingly, I guessed that human beings cannot reach the truth because of their limits. So many people are performing ascetic practices but they don’t say they reached the truth. Why? It is because their assumptions are wrong.

Thus, I concluded that only God can save human beings. Christianism touched that crucial point so I hoped much from the assumption of the religion.

In Christianism, the faith said that humans cannot reach God so they must trust in the atonement of Jesus Christ for ultimate salvation. At first, it was like a difficult lesson and when the term “faith” comes to me, I thought I have to develop a new sense.

However, when I realized the essence of the truth, I felt real freedom. I was shouting I realized the truth and I reached the goal. The pleasure was so great.

I said my journey to God and truth briefly in this column. Some people may say that my claim is inclined to Christianism. I just wanted to share my experience with readers. If you are willing to reach the truth, please reference my journey to the truth. Please warmly understand my thought even if it is little bit biased!

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